Yeesh!

The events of last week knocked me for a bigger and wider loop than I was expecting. I was already braced for the election win, but not such overwhelming numbers, and have been going through all the emotions since then. 

Mostly disbelief (I mean, EVERY swing state? Sure, Jan. But all his screaming about rigged elections has silenced anyone else talking about it...the wolf that cried "wolf") but interspersed with despair (that so many of my countrymen want a world without me and my kind in it) and rage (that they have the audacity to want that world) and fear (that they're going to get that world) in alternating waves. 

I had to dissociate from the feelings just to function, do my hosting and DJing and postermaking, and try to encourage my friends who are going through it too; anything beyond base, though, creativity and self-care and working for the future, was set aside. 

But I feel ready to reenter reality today, the feelings have boiled down to a manageable size. I finally got a shower last night and took my testosterone injection and put on my nice PJs and got a good night's sleep. Now I'm going to rejoin my NaNoWriMo with some writing while I prepare for tonight's hosting gig, and put some garbage in some bags, and generally behave as if the world is not ending next week. Nurture some hope and whip up some fight for the future.

Hope you all are doing OK, or better!