I don't quite know what to do with myself these days. I'm so bored at work that I'm having difficulty functioning. I mean it's nice to have steady work to do, and it's nice that the work isn't too difficult. But it's so barely bearable in its boringness that making myself do the work is sometimes very difficult.
It's all so repetitive and featureless: take the file apart, scan the file, save the scan to the provider's subdirectory, put the file back together, get another file. It's endless and tedious and makes me want to cry sometimes.
I've tried reading the files, but that's not very entertaining. I've tried seeing how many files I can do at once, but after one or two I want to slit my wrists. I listen to music while I'm doing the work, and when a good song comes on I bop around and even dance a little, but that doesn't really help with the central problem.
I have a feeling, however, that my problem is one of acceptance rather than of functionality. I mean, my last job wasn't a thrill a minute, either, but I managed to enjoy it a lot more than this one. I think the problem is that I haven't learned to accept this job at its most basic level, I am resisting it. And that resistance is what I have to overcome. I just don't really know how.
Speaking of which, though, I guess I'd better get to work, since they're paying me and all. Take the file apart, scan the file, save the scan to the provider's subdirectory, put the file back together, get another file. What could be more fun?
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